Angst essen Seele auf [Fear Eats the Soul]

Firstly, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID DUCHOVNY!!!!! :D 

I haven't got to celebrate yet because I had to take an early bus home from my Dads to see my sister. But I am going back out here soon and I have muy planned. :)

I went to The X-Files movie one last time on Tuesday. I wrote this while sitting in the theatre waiting for the movie to start. 

6:45pm. My last time to sit in this theatre, this seat and experience the wondrous beauty that is The X-Files movie. I am both excited and sad to see it again, this 4^th time. I am excited because it has been a week since I last saw it. A very long week…more like a year. And I am sad to see it again because it will be the last, at least until the DVD comes out. But mostly I am sad because my beautiful movie that I love so much still hasn’t won the hearts of millions like I thought it would. Like I know it deserved and deserves to. Oh X-Files movie, will anyone love you the way I do? Arrgh. When did seeing 2 of my most beauteous loves on the big screen become a thing of sadness and not jump out of my shoes happiness? Enough. We are going to relish this event for we might never have this experience again. Yes. I am happy. I love this movie and that is all that matters.

7:01. 14 minutes to bliss. I fear I may cry even more this time. They are having that effect on me again. Those subtle nuances and faint little expressions are having a very significant effect. The littlest things are bringing me to tears again. Gillian has this way of exuding angst and heartache that just breaks my heart. I am on my way to that level of crazy I had forgotten I am capable of. There is no hope for me.

7:11. Yay! Take me to the insanity and set me free in a crazy field of flowers. I don’t ever want to come back. That is where I want to be.

7:15. Bring it on.

There’s no holding back the years. There’s no holding back the tears.

No, I didn’t hold back the tears. I cried more this time than I did all the others combined. I think it was partly because it was leaving but more-so I think it was because I had been away for a while and came back with a clear head and got to just take everything in. And the tears flow down…down and down.   

So I was reading "The Rough Guide to Chick Flicks" today and found a Gillian mention. Thought I'd share. :)

Lit/Flick Crossover --- Edith Wharton
   Her first big seller, The House of Mirth (1905), a painful account of a scarlet woman's attempts to find security in polit society, was transferred to stage the next year and filmed - with a new, happy ending - in 1918. In 2000 Terence Davies directed a superb adaptation: starring the luminous Gillian Anderson as tragic social climber Lily Bart...it's a sombre yet exquisite film, all elegance and claustrophobia. Pgs 227 - 228.

I was happy that they gave it a good review because I for one LOVED this movie and Gillian in it but I've read some not so positive reviews about it and her. Anywho, thought I'd share something that made me smile. :)


All for now.


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Nikayla